Yay! Exams ended!
So what now?
Idk...
just sucks to dont know...
School organised agape week... yay.
learned about relationships and sexuality and all...
some stuffs might be true but I think it definitely not the same for everyone..
Friday had a surprise early news on the bio paper...
I wasnt expecting to do well and certainly not wanting to do badly either...
This eoys i havent found any motivation to do work..
I purely mugged just a couple of days before the papers..
Throughout my student life, I know that I'm not exactly a pure intelligent student...
I need hard work.. LOTS OF HARD WORK to even do desirably well..
and I certainly did not input that much this time round...
I expect to do badly..
The feeling I know will suck..
I gotto brace myself for the impact, the HUGE impending doom...
I know the consequences but I did not do anything to prevent that from happening..
hopefully I learn my lesson...
... y am i so emo today?
idk...
bio had been in my mind for the damned night...
idk how the other papers will fare...
results which certainly does not really matters so much in life just mattered enough to make me so downcast and feel.. sucky...
Woke up to 2 messages on my phone..
one was school matters... SMP..
I feel I needed to join something to help my portfolio, my future...
sigh materialistic world and society...
Once again, I questioned my decision to join VIP...
There are simply too many people to compete with..
Am I thinking too much?
idk...
Two, my past was brought up..
idk if you should call it hurtful or nostalgic...
I really wish to return to the past and settle this properly...
idk what I was up to then.. sigh...
hope it is not too late to resolve matters..
Mum got my hint to go out before my dentist appointment.. yay!
havent went out with mum and spend some quality time with her in a while...
had some happy moments there
I needed Court shoes a new pair of running shoes and yea...
I was hoping to get them today..
now I feel that if I had gotten it today, it'd had distracted me from all these shyt im going through now...
Anyways it was quite positive
mum promised me that shoe..YAY!
hopefully she keeps her promise?
I have so much to buy... but all are kept within myself...
I shouldnt portray myself as such an insensitive boy in front of my mum...
c'mon! I'm alr grown up! haha
In the end, didnt get what i want... cuz idk wad should i really get..
oh wells... dentist was as usual...
red braces now haha
it was sian chinese tuition..
2 more weeks of tuition left!
just jiayou a bit more for another year and chinese begone!
but i think i'll miss chinese..
chinese sometimes help distinguish myself from the other top performers in school..
but oh well it'll all voice down to english and the sciences and humans where there are so much more competition...
Dinner was great!
seafood yay!
I loved the assam fish there!
then went home and stoned..
tried practising electone but no inspiration came..
I wanna learn guitar but idk....
do i have time?
how much can i commit?
sigh...
life is such a challenge...
i hope i can overcome these challenges and emerge a stronger and happier person..
who is sure of himself and ot always say: idk...
